I was very excited about our forthcoming holiday, possibly a bit over the top. But, we've worked hard to earn the money to pay for it.
I was simply over the moon about my new embroidery/textiles course.
Until my bro was here to visit, that is. He was here for three weeks which isn't usually a problem. And, he was here while Mr T was away for a few days on a motorbike trip with his mates. Not usually a problem.
Except that I came home from an evening at the rural, to find he had downed a bottle of Jack Daniels. A medium bottle of 40% proof, of my JD. He wasn't too bad when I left him to go to bed as my back was very sore. (It had been my turn to do the supper and it takes it out of my back)
I had to come downstairs again and ring my daughter, as I was scared bro needed an ambulance - that he would die, or get up and hit me if I said the wrong thing. He can be violent in drink.
Daughter stayed on the 'phone while son-in-law raced up in the car. He helped me to aid bro while he was being sick. I was so worried and angry, as well as embarrassed for s-i-l, that I took some video.
Next day, he stayed in bed for most of it. I went off to wherever I needed to go and Mr T returned home. I kept thinking 'Oh my god, some people have to put up with this on a daily or nightly basis!'
Then, the next day, after I had been in a daze of upset, nearly bursting into tears while shopping in town, I vowed that he needed to go. However, I couldn't send him away after he has been rejected by our mum, for no good reason. I decided I needed to at least say something to him.
He told me that I was over-reacting. I dared him to say such a thing, how dare he?! I know he is an alcoholic, he doesn't know it yet, it seems. I offered to take him to AA, but he said he wouldn't do it until he got home.
He has now gone home, under a cloud. We looked into the drinks cupboard and have found, unsurprisingly, that all the bottles are somewhat lower.
I am so upset at the prospect of what might lay ahead for him. We have always looked after each other. I cannot look after him, there is nothing I can do to make this better for him.